vertigo™

 yesterday was such an interesting day. it was the witnessing day of my church, where we could go for tracting or listen to the evangelistic meetings held at the same time. went for the tracting,which starts at 9.00. but before we set out, we sang 2 hymns: "i love to tell the story" and "can it be that i should gain?"the first song really touched me as it reminds me that there are many pple in the rest of the world who are still ignorant of the gospel. it boils down to the fact that we were simply not hardworking enough to spread the gospel.this is one thing which i would really like to improve on for me.

 

anyway, for the tracting group, i got rixi and yikang.YAY:) but unfortunately, i was put the leader! so nervous.. yikes. and actually, all 3 of us have not had any experience in the doing the "slow" type of tracting but we have had some experience in the "fast" type. in the "slow" type, we had to knock on EVERY SINGLE DOOR and when the door opens, we have to talk to them, hand them the tract and introduce Jesus and the gospel;while for the "fast" type, we just put a tract in every closed door and basically that's it. however, FOR ME, the "slow" type is A BIG CHALLENGE. cos i've always had a lack of courage to address strangers in normal conversations,much less in sharing of the gospel to them! but the three of us prayed hard for us to be equipped for God's work . and it was WONDERFUL. when we reached there, i did not feel as scared as i was the previous few times. amazingly, i felt calm and comforted that the Holy Spirit was working THROUGH me and not ME doing the work alone.

 

unfortunately, from the very first door which i knocked emerged a fierce a-peh:

 

me:gd morning, can u give me a few minutes?i'm from a nearby church and i want to pass this tract...

apeh: how old r u ?

me: 16?

apeh:u noe how old i am? i'm 67! is ur dad 67?

me: er... no.. (link??)

apeh: i've been to 10 churches already! the catholic one, the melaka church, the next door church etc etc (apeh names 10 churches)

         so u say ur church is better than any other church lah?

me: no no no.. i didn't ...

apeh:LISTEN TO ME!! u r young. i'm old . u study hard. that's all i want to say to u!

 

rixi was like "??" when he saw my surprised face. but actually, i dun really understand what the apeh was saying seriously. oh well .. at least that provided me some "amusement"  afterwards! -.-'''

 

but some of the pple there were nice pple! they listened very politely and looked interested when u spoke to them.THAT was encouraging. hope i get to see them in church next year. i'll be the first one to say "hi!" to them if so!! lol..-.-

 

but i really pity those who rejected the gospel. it is really not far from the end of this age and they haven't received the gospel :/ guess have to pray hard for the pple who haven't heard the gospel yet.

 

 

 

 

NONONO!!! only a few more days to new JC life. new friends. new environment. new challenge. PHEW. had hoped to slack for like 3 more months instead of going to JC. :) haha.. but no such luck here in S'pore. also haven't chosen my subject combi in JC. yippee!!! oh well, see how it goes..

 

really hope i make new friends real fast. :)

 

 

 btw, i'm going to change my blog to lazyfatblog.blogspot.com

ok.. as u can read from the title, youth camp was a great experience for me. LIVE BY THE HOLY SPIRIT. that's the main theme. and how true! to crucify the sinful nature of ours, all we have to do is to live by the HOLY SPIRIT. what struck me was the way God has already seen our weakness in defeating sin in our lives that He has already planned to fill us with the HOLY SPIRIT when we believe in Christ. the holy spirit.God's greatest gift to mankind after His Salvation.

 

come to think of it.. what have we done to deserve God's attention, much less love us.. God's grace is bountiful and ample for our needs in both our physical and spiritual lives. Praise the Lord for that!

 

ok.. back to the camp.. and the most important part i learnt was to always follow God's will in everything in life,from the troubles in our life and the decisions we need to make. in other words, i learnt that i have to follow the Holy Spirit's guidance in everything i do. and that's what i'm still learning to do. esp in the choosing of the subj combination in JC. esp in my adjustment to JC life. esp in my adjustment to my new life in Clementi from Bedok. esp in EVERYTHING essentially. but since i realise that the NAVIGATOR of our souls is beside me all the time, i can take comfort in that i can face all difficulties with the help of the Holy Spirit.

 

 and there's really another comforting thing i learnt. the battle against sin is not a despairing one. for victory is already secured in Christ's hands, who removed the sting of Death. since it's already secured, we can say we have the ability to triumph over sin. praise the Lord God Almighty.

 

 

 

 

 

 

WOOHOOO!!!!! I LOVE CHURCH CAMP!! although the resort in Johor reduced our stay from 5 days to 4 days in the last minute (seriously, i think that's very noobish of the resort.), the camp was never short of fun and spiritual gain.

i got to the resort one day before the rest and man, i love the room. i sort of fell asleep immediately the moment i hit the bed. and the air con was SHIOK!!!!! haha.. however, it's a little dark but never mind.. who cares..

 

haha.. then i also got to stay with 2 of my good friends hongen and chancey. so fun.. and the ling xui with them was very enriching in spirit and we also got to share problems of the church, our personal problems to each other too. i would not forget the man to man talk...

 

haha.. most importantlyl, i learnt that i have forgotten to love God with the first love i had for Him.. and i want to make it a point to love God deeply. another thing i learnt is to be loyal servant to God and to be loyal to whatever i do. for if i am not loyal in doing small things how can i be loyal in big things i do? jus yesterday, i helped mowch for a while from 1 to 3, helping him to move tables, chairs, to move this, move that etc. and then, we were allowed to take a break. i registered for the 4 of us together to play table tennis for 1hr and sort of promised to help uncle jeffrey in what he's doing later. but when i think of what i did after that, i would really feel extremely ashamed of myself as i questioned my loyalty in what i do. we played not until 4pm,nor 5pm but  6 pm!!!! and by then uncle jeffrey had finished his job. i felt so bad, promising to help and then backing out by being lazy and fun loving and played 2 hours overtime. i feel so so so bad. yeah.

 

right.  i will promise not to kui1 qian4 God again.

YES!!!!!!!!!!!! the Os are over!!!! now time to shake leg until it drops off.........i love this time of the year.. so cool and breezy.... but better still, there's ABSOLUTELY NO HOMEWORK WHATSOEVER!!! plenty of time to PLAY NON STOP! who says o levels are not fun? well, not the preparation part but hey! the end part rocks!

 

 

anyway, the time has come for us to choose our JCs.. still have no idea what JC to choose.... cripes..... still have lots of complications going on that i'm not able to tell as yet but will do so in the near future... yeah... have to pray about this, for nothing is IMPOSSIBLE for God.yeps.. glad i have him.

 

k... now as promised, i'm going to put an anecdote about my life so far... funny ones... at least, i think it is...

 

 

RIGHT.

 

 

now, this is the most disgusting thing that happened in my life and it's quite disgusting when u'll see later on.. i was 4 or 5 then(i can't remember which)... i had this really nice pair of shoes and i always wore it when my family goes out. it's a small shoe that's made of a strong kind of material and is super-sturdy.but the real reason why i liked it was because it had a huge Superman stitched on it's side and i LOVE Superman then.(which small kid wouldn't like an action figure?)

  anyway, my mom had to rush off somewhere with my sister and me one day and she was doing things in her usual whirlwind speed while screaming at us to hurry up.. CORRECTION: my sister, not US. i was never the problem. my sister is so slow that i bet she could be slower than a half-asleep snail. i bet she could win the "world's slowest person" competition if there ever was one. but anyway, that was the past and i better stop bad mouthing  her or else i'll end up in the coffin. SO, out of the house i hurried, quickly donning my shoes i had talked about above.As i jammed my feet in, i felt something hard beneath my left foot.

 

"Mom, there's something in my left shoe!" i told her. Mom took no notice and pushed me out of the door. for the rest of the afternoon, i limped about due to some 'LUMP' in my shoe.

 

right. the shocker is to come when i returned home. i was never more glad when i reached home. i eagerly took off my left shoe. the sole of my left foot was soggy with some funny brown juice. incredulous, i peeked at the inside of the shoe. GUESS WHAT?

 

          A half squashed dead cockroach with its head, tail and legs separated from the body.

this is one of the last blogs in a  thousand yrs from me.. hahaha... no lah... prob for only 3 months.. jus finished prelims...so relaxed.. lag time for a while first then restart engine again..

 

i want to take this opportunity to announce that on my blog when i come back in the near forseeable future, there will be excerpts of the funny things in my life.. written maybe in installments and the like.. jus want to ask for comments for this development too.. thanks

 

will i get through this? or rather THESE things that have happened to me... i jus received news that dad COULD have contracted malaria... as u know, he's gone to kenya, a country where malaria is rampant, for 2 wks... which is like ENUFF to get infected.. oh dear.. i feel so worried.. what if he's really got malaria? i don't know what i would really do.. 

 

OH GOD, pls dun let dad contract malaria..pls let it be anything else BUT malaria...

 

it doesn't look gd at all.. he's got dizziness, lethargy, fever, a bit of rash and a little bit of hallucinations... on the outlook of things, things really look bleak for him... and my mom.. my sis.. and ME...

 

at least there's hope..i jus read on the internet that the side effects of the drug he is taking to prevent malaria is similar to the symptoms he is having right now.. all except the rash part... yeah... i am jus pinning my hope on this hope rite now... i am pinning my hopes on the LORD too... Lord.. pls don't let it be malaria.

 

need to study liao.. life must go on.. all i can do is pray for him.. i must do him proud at least... yep.. i'll try my best.. hope i get to see the unbounding grace of God in this matter... life can't be more trying than it is now..

YAY!!!! dad's back at last!! and he's go a lot of pictures to show us.. haha.. all the masai tribal dances and the funny lodgings.. plus the funny animals from the safari... he even wanted to take a picture of a lion peeing... he said it peed quite long... HAHA!! big time LOL!! woohooo... wish i was there with him in kenya... he made sound so nice.. and i found that it was not all that ulu place... it's a bit like china if i don't know it's kenya... hahaha..

 

and sis is back too.. . with a high fever.. great.. need her help for this fri's o level english oral... haha.. going to be a fool of myself on that day.. imagine me staring dumbly at the teacher with mouth slightly open.. hahah.... with plenty of UHs...bet the teachers will be irritated with me..

 

YES!!S'pore is going to have its birthday soon! haha....oh no.. jus realised we still haven't put up the national flag... woops... but it saddens me to see that many of us mumble the national anthem.. can see how patriotic we are....

 

muahaha... tmrw's the ultra long run at mc ritchie... think i'm going to stroll all the way.. all 4.8km of it... wooohoo.. stupid new mass run we have to do this time round... the school is jus being innovative for the wrong reasons... at least they are giving us a good sec 4 graduation night dinner.. woohooo!!!

this is it.. the last lap of the race.. time to pia and sprint full speed ahead.. there is not turning back now.. it's now or neva.. goodness.. jus had one wk of strenous  exams.. sheesh... den to top it all, my "all-favourite-exam "GEOG E was like EWWWWW!!!! i hate geog e!! all the stupid non-stop writing for one and a half hour... KO... ok...2 more papers and i can breathe easily... a maths and soc studies...

 

ok... i miss dad a lot... he's jus went kenya for 2 wks! so cool... wish i could join him... ride and elephant, getting chased by a lion and the lot... the highlight is that he can to the all famous SAFARI!!!! ok... maybe not so all famous... but it's still cool!!i wanna be those tribal pple who dance around a big cauldron, do some tribal dance and maybe act like a hooilgan!! maybe hunt some zebra or something... haha .. now i seem like i want to go back to prrimitive times..  then my sis also went to NUS hostel.. now i'm all alone.. no one to talk to really.. too busy to go online all the time tho... haha... at least it's all quieter now... so peaceful.. haha... and FINALLY, i miss CARROM!!! i want to have that exhilirating feeling of the seed going straight in the hole... CHOUP!!!  wahasmaka...

 

sighx.... there seems to be so many things that i'm getting involved in.. both in church and school... it's so tiring...  GOD, pls help our pple in church... :)  jus a  prayer... haha..ok... back to carnage mode.. ultra full speed whack study!!! CIAO

i am feeling so dead tired.. all because of the tedious and energy-sapping da4 sao3 chu2.. hafta wash all four outer walls of the church and all the carpets too.. den the worst thing is the dragging back of the carpets to the rite places... if u rmbr them wrongly and put them in the wrong place, it's GG (good game)., KO even.. all the smelly carpets and all wet.. haha... ZZZ... so tired... gonna sleep early... rest my tired bones :x